I have so much to write about (non-ttc) but no time to do it! I feel like I'm running around screaming "the holidays are coming, the holidays are coming!!!" but not actually getting anything done. Well I shouldn't say that, things are getting done, just at a much slower pace than I'd like....
But in the meantime, today is CD 12 and too late for an HSG. I talked to the nurse at my OB/GYN's office today, she was waiting to hear back on the insurance check for me for a while now (one of the delays to scheduling it). My insurance will cover 90% of it after I meet the $750 deductible for an out of pocket max of $1000. She wasn't sure what the HSG actually costs since it's done at the hospital, so I have to call them to find out. It'll be the same coverage for Chris's S/A, and she gave me the phone number for the facility that he'll have to go to for that so I can see what their scheduling availablity is and their prices. I hope he's still willing to do that!
The cool thing is, my company has a health reibursement account set up (different than my FSA) that is emplyer funded and can be used to get reimbursement for deductibles and co-insurance payments. So in theory my company will be paying for my tests (at least up to the $750 and any co-insurance payments)
But my insurance does not cover IF treatment - so no IUIs, no IVF, I don't know if it'll cover any meds (I doubt it)....so let's pray that these screenings/tests locate something easily fixable!
Oh and it looks like the HSG will be scheduled just after the new year.
December 15, 2009
December 9, 2009
Prayers are always welcome
My dad was in an accident tonight :( He's okay, but both air bags deployed and they're making him go to the hospital. my mom said he said he's okay and the lady is too, apparently he go T-boned at an intersection. the car is probably totaled but he has a pick up truck he can use (they have 3 vehicles).
I'm okay too, just a little unsettled right now and felt that I had to put this out there for positive vibes and prayers :)
In other news I still haven't heard anything about scheduling the HSG. hopefully they don't call tomorrow expecting I can come in (I work across the street from the OB's office and told them my schedule is flexible and I can come in even last minute) - but tomorrow I have to be in the field for construction observation....I'm a "last resort" person for field work so there's no one to cover for me if I have to leave. they said they were trying for Thursday or Tuesday. Tuesday would be CD 11 or 12 (my period had started just before midnight last Thursday so I'd usually say friday was CD 1 but it was kind heavy overnight. so it's a tough call.) They don't like to do HSG's after CD 10 cuz there's a chance of washing out an egg. but since it didn't work the last 18 cycles, I'm thinking I'd rather get the test done and risk washing out an egg over waiting another cycle just to "see what happens". I'm kinda over "seeing what happens" since that's a big fat nothing everything cycle. They did say I can get a copy of the B/W results when I come in so that's cool. I'd just like to know where in the normal range my numbers fell.
And lastly my sewing machine started making a funky noise tonight :( I have so many projects planned and just bough the thing 2 months ago, there better not be anything really wrong. it's not a consistant noise, so hopefully it'll just goaway and I can go back to quilting :)
I'm okay too, just a little unsettled right now and felt that I had to put this out there for positive vibes and prayers :)
In other news I still haven't heard anything about scheduling the HSG. hopefully they don't call tomorrow expecting I can come in (I work across the street from the OB's office and told them my schedule is flexible and I can come in even last minute) - but tomorrow I have to be in the field for construction observation....I'm a "last resort" person for field work so there's no one to cover for me if I have to leave. they said they were trying for Thursday or Tuesday. Tuesday would be CD 11 or 12 (my period had started just before midnight last Thursday so I'd usually say friday was CD 1 but it was kind heavy overnight. so it's a tough call.) They don't like to do HSG's after CD 10 cuz there's a chance of washing out an egg. but since it didn't work the last 18 cycles, I'm thinking I'd rather get the test done and risk washing out an egg over waiting another cycle just to "see what happens". I'm kinda over "seeing what happens" since that's a big fat nothing everything cycle. They did say I can get a copy of the B/W results when I come in so that's cool. I'd just like to know where in the normal range my numbers fell.
And lastly my sewing machine started making a funky noise tonight :( I have so many projects planned and just bough the thing 2 months ago, there better not be anything really wrong. it's not a consistant noise, so hopefully it'll just goaway and I can go back to quilting :)
December 8, 2009
Whine Bitch Moan Complain
this is about my coworker..... She's in her early 40s and has 2 kids, ages 11 and 8. She worked here for something like 10 years and when she had her second child she decided to be a SAHM for a few years (I was actually hired to replace her) and is now back to work part time (for the last 4 or 5 years). We share a double wide cubical which is great when she's not here, cuz I get the center table all to myself :)
She doesn't talk about anything except her kids schedule, all the running she has to do and coordinating and how her H doesn't do any of it (she does talk about gardening in the spring/summer and she's given me a ton of plants over the years and is a nice person but she can be so annoying).
you can't bring up any story with out it somehow turning to her and her kids, and God forbid she actually talk at work about work....anyone who stops by to talk about work will no doubt wind up talking about horse riding lessons or piano lessons, or left wondering if soccer practice will be cancled or who the new basketball coach will be. My God, it doesn't stop! and I get to hear it all. I will sit here somedays with my fingers in my ears and reading aloud if I can't concentrate with the babbling about what kids have whos birthday party this weekend and how she's trying to keep the christmas presents fair.
I get it, her kids are her life, work means nothing to her, fine...no problem...work isn't my life either, my crafts/hobbies/friends are - it's not like I'm a career-woman, if I didn't have to work I really don't think I would (and that has nothing to do with being a mom, even if I never have kids, if I didn't have to work I know I'd be perfectly content with my projects and hobbies and visiting my grandmother across the street when I'm bored :)).
And the fact that she's part time just kills me, she spends maybe 15 hrs a week here, and without exageration (yeah, no idea how to spell that) she spends at least 5 of those hours a week talking about her kids and looking up dinner recipes online. that's 33% of her time here. While I may spend a lot of time on the internet and email throughout the week it's usually only a total of maybe an hour a day, which is also 5 hours a week but I work 40 or more hours in a week, so it's not nearly as obvious.
I don't know where I'm going with this, I just felt like I had to get it off my mind, maybe I'll stop bristling under my skin when I have to hear how busy her weekend was and the million and one after school activities she has to fit in this week. I really do like her, she is a nice person and there could be way worse people I'd have to share my space with, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much.
She doesn't talk about anything except her kids schedule, all the running she has to do and coordinating and how her H doesn't do any of it (she does talk about gardening in the spring/summer and she's given me a ton of plants over the years and is a nice person but she can be so annoying).
you can't bring up any story with out it somehow turning to her and her kids, and God forbid she actually talk at work about work....anyone who stops by to talk about work will no doubt wind up talking about horse riding lessons or piano lessons, or left wondering if soccer practice will be cancled or who the new basketball coach will be. My God, it doesn't stop! and I get to hear it all. I will sit here somedays with my fingers in my ears and reading aloud if I can't concentrate with the babbling about what kids have whos birthday party this weekend and how she's trying to keep the christmas presents fair.
I get it, her kids are her life, work means nothing to her, fine...no problem...work isn't my life either, my crafts/hobbies/friends are - it's not like I'm a career-woman, if I didn't have to work I really don't think I would (and that has nothing to do with being a mom, even if I never have kids, if I didn't have to work I know I'd be perfectly content with my projects and hobbies and visiting my grandmother across the street when I'm bored :)).
And the fact that she's part time just kills me, she spends maybe 15 hrs a week here, and without exageration (yeah, no idea how to spell that) she spends at least 5 of those hours a week talking about her kids and looking up dinner recipes online. that's 33% of her time here. While I may spend a lot of time on the internet and email throughout the week it's usually only a total of maybe an hour a day, which is also 5 hours a week but I work 40 or more hours in a week, so it's not nearly as obvious.
I don't know where I'm going with this, I just felt like I had to get it off my mind, maybe I'll stop bristling under my skin when I have to hear how busy her weekend was and the million and one after school activities she has to fit in this week. I really do like her, she is a nice person and there could be way worse people I'd have to share my space with, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much.
December 7, 2009
random post
I know I don't have many pictures in my posts so I thought I'd do a little picture blog :)
Here's a picture of my dog Druppy (pronounced "droopy" - we adopted him with that name and I didn't have the heart to change it, like my dog would know if I changed the spelling of his name or something ;)
He's chilling on his new dog bed I made him :)
I got all of my Christmas decorating done this weekend, except we have to get our tree yet. Well we went this weekend with our friends but the tree farm wanted $55 for a 6/7 tree - yeah no way in hell I'm paying that kind of money! So we'll go next weekend, because come hell or high water I will have a real tree that we cut down. Unless I absolutely run out of time I'll compromise and get a pre-cut one, but things have to be pretty hectic for me to give in.
Anyway, this is my most favorite decoration (probably cuz I made it) but I absolutely love it!
And we had our first snowfall of the season! (well it snowed in October but I'm choosing to ignore that because it was time to start snowing yet!)
I don't know why I didn't take a picture later in the day when everything was covered, but I was so excited when it started I snapped this pic off our back deck :)
And in TTC news, The "letter" from the doctor was a just a form where they checked off that the bloodwork and cultures were in normal ranges. No other information.
I emailed the doctor's office on saturday to let them know that I need to schedule the HSG (oh yeah, my period started late Thursday night) and that I'd like a copy of the bloodwork results...I'll probably call them this afternoon as I have never used the email service before and I'd like to get the appt scheduled ASAP.
That's all for now :)
December 3, 2009
no news
I called the doctor's office to see if the doctor had a chance to review the bloodwork results and the nurse checked my file and noted that a letter went out today. a Letter, Really?!?! In 2009 - the age of instant gratification and 14 different ways of contacting soemone and my doctor's office uses snail mail?! Ugh. that's a little frustrating.
but I figured, don't bite the hand that feeds you...the fact is the lab results were returned in a day, my doctor was out yesterday so that means he saw them, reviewed, processed them and issued me a letter this morning so all things considered I don't think I can complain too much. I figure if it was earth-shattering/life-altering news he probably would've tracked me down by phone if nothing else, so that leads me to believe all is fine, just as he suspected.
and I just wanted to write down the name Issac. I don't know why, it came to me while I was driving home from work last night. I like it, if we have a boy I'd like to consider it as a possibility and would hate to forget it. it doesn't really fit my criteria for a boys name, but I still like it :)
but I figured, don't bite the hand that feeds you...the fact is the lab results were returned in a day, my doctor was out yesterday so that means he saw them, reviewed, processed them and issued me a letter this morning so all things considered I don't think I can complain too much. I figure if it was earth-shattering/life-altering news he probably would've tracked me down by phone if nothing else, so that leads me to believe all is fine, just as he suspected.
and I just wanted to write down the name Issac. I don't know why, it came to me while I was driving home from work last night. I like it, if we have a boy I'd like to consider it as a possibility and would hate to forget it. it doesn't really fit my criteria for a boys name, but I still like it :)
December 2, 2009
My 1st date with the wand
I took step # 3 today and I had my first ever u/s. Now this was not exactly the circumstance under which I imagined my 1st u/s would be, but all in all it went as well as can be expected. 1st off let me say the u/s tech lady was awesome! she was super enthusastic, explained things pretty well (even if she was a fast talker), she was gentle and firm at the same time, really seemed to be on my side. she was super happy to hear that I charted which was cool :)
She told she'd be looking for cysts, fibriods, polyps, etc...she said if there was anything to be seen, we'd see it. There was a screen hung on the wall in front of me so I could see everything. she explained what she was looking for (anatomy parts) and if things were normal. she asked where I was in my cycle and since I'm anywhere between 12 and 14 dpo she said everything looked exactly like it should. in her words I am perfect down there. she said my lining was thickening as it should be so that was good news for when I do get pg.
She also said my b/w results were in my chart but since the doc wasn't in the office today he hasn't seen them yet. he'll be in the next 2 days so I'll probably call tomorrow afternoon cuz I'm really anxious to find that out. I asked for a copy of the results too, she said I can have them after the doc looks at them.
Then she went and found the nurse who works with my doctor to make sure she was going to start the insurance paperwork for the HSG and s/a.
she seems like a great advocate to keeping things moving and if I get my period (she said let's hope we don't have to take this infertilty testing any further :)
She said that if/when I do get my period I should call to set up the HSG as that can be done any day up to CD 10. so that's a nice big window to work with and hopefully I won't miss the oppurtunity next cycle.
I'm not gonna lie, I was hoping against hope that I was wrong on my O date (my last period started on 10/28) and she's see a little sac floating around in there. :) haha, I'm such an optimist sometimes it's scary :)
She told she'd be looking for cysts, fibriods, polyps, etc...she said if there was anything to be seen, we'd see it. There was a screen hung on the wall in front of me so I could see everything. she explained what she was looking for (anatomy parts) and if things were normal. she asked where I was in my cycle and since I'm anywhere between 12 and 14 dpo she said everything looked exactly like it should. in her words I am perfect down there. she said my lining was thickening as it should be so that was good news for when I do get pg.
She also said my b/w results were in my chart but since the doc wasn't in the office today he hasn't seen them yet. he'll be in the next 2 days so I'll probably call tomorrow afternoon cuz I'm really anxious to find that out. I asked for a copy of the results too, she said I can have them after the doc looks at them.
Then she went and found the nurse who works with my doctor to make sure she was going to start the insurance paperwork for the HSG and s/a.
she seems like a great advocate to keeping things moving and if I get my period (she said let's hope we don't have to take this infertilty testing any further :)
She said that if/when I do get my period I should call to set up the HSG as that can be done any day up to CD 10. so that's a nice big window to work with and hopefully I won't miss the oppurtunity next cycle.
I'm not gonna lie, I was hoping against hope that I was wrong on my O date (my last period started on 10/28) and she's see a little sac floating around in there. :) haha, I'm such an optimist sometimes it's scary :)
December 1, 2009
one minute I'm up, the next I'm down
what a freaking rollercoaster of emotions.
2 baby girls were born yesterday and I'm so freaking happy I could explode! and the next minute I'm overcome with the feeling that there's a deep hole in my heart and if I let myself go I ust might fall in.
I am really really good about handling the news when someone tells me they're pregant. I don't even feel like I'm putting on a brave face because I know it's a miracle that everything worked out and there's a little mass of cells growing and forming a little baby.
Its when that baby gets here that I kinda feel a little crater forming in my heart and a lump in my throat. I'm so over-joyed that my friend and my cousin each have a new perfect little person in their life, that everyone is happy and healthy and things are just perfect for them. I can't wait to meet the little girls and love on them and watch them grow up and be the amazing ladies I'm sure they will be.
but at the same time reality is smacking me in the face that I'm not pg yet.
I know I will be, I know we're taking the neccessary steps to get to that point. and it will happen.
I never was a very patient person. .sigh.
I did the b/w today, so that's the 2nd step on this fun little path we're on. my arm hurts a bit, but all in all the nurse did a good job so I can't complain too much. and I never peed in a cup in a doctor's office before, I filled that bad boy up! haha!
and speaking of handling "I'm pregnant" news - one of my BFF's found out last week that her cousin and one of her BFF's are both pregnant! she was nervous to tell me (I know both girls) but I truly do love hearing that someone got pregnant. I really honestly do. Especially her BFF - she had to go through IVF (sperm issues) and it took on the first shot. She is the sweetest girl and I could NOT be happier for her!
I can't help it if I feel slightly more happy for those couples who are pregnant after fertility treatments or at least trying for a fair amount of time. ;)
And - if things really do happen in 3's, perhaps I'll be the 3rd piece of good news sometime soon :)
2 baby girls were born yesterday and I'm so freaking happy I could explode! and the next minute I'm overcome with the feeling that there's a deep hole in my heart and if I let myself go I ust might fall in.
I am really really good about handling the news when someone tells me they're pregant. I don't even feel like I'm putting on a brave face because I know it's a miracle that everything worked out and there's a little mass of cells growing and forming a little baby.
Its when that baby gets here that I kinda feel a little crater forming in my heart and a lump in my throat. I'm so over-joyed that my friend and my cousin each have a new perfect little person in their life, that everyone is happy and healthy and things are just perfect for them. I can't wait to meet the little girls and love on them and watch them grow up and be the amazing ladies I'm sure they will be.
but at the same time reality is smacking me in the face that I'm not pg yet.
I know I will be, I know we're taking the neccessary steps to get to that point. and it will happen.
I never was a very patient person. .sigh.
I did the b/w today, so that's the 2nd step on this fun little path we're on. my arm hurts a bit, but all in all the nurse did a good job so I can't complain too much. and I never peed in a cup in a doctor's office before, I filled that bad boy up! haha!
and speaking of handling "I'm pregnant" news - one of my BFF's found out last week that her cousin and one of her BFF's are both pregnant! she was nervous to tell me (I know both girls) but I truly do love hearing that someone got pregnant. I really honestly do. Especially her BFF - she had to go through IVF (sperm issues) and it took on the first shot. She is the sweetest girl and I could NOT be happier for her!
I can't help it if I feel slightly more happy for those couples who are pregnant after fertility treatments or at least trying for a fair amount of time. ;)
And - if things really do happen in 3's, perhaps I'll be the 3rd piece of good news sometime soon :)
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